[Yet he gets it, all of Kel's friendship. To be honest, the taller teen is just so glad he didn't burn bridges like he did with Sunny, there. He's so glad Basil was receptive to his affection instead of pushing him away, because if at least one of the two has a vague idea of what's going on maybe they can work things together. He wants his friends to be happy, he wants his siblings to be happy, that's all...
When the other wipes his tears away, he feels jealous- he wishes he was able to do the same- but the only time he cried since he arrived there? It was in front of Aubrey and it was ugly.]
No need to push them away in front of me, mh? If you feel you want to cry, you can cry.
[Better than the alternative. God, what was he even supposed to do about 'Something'? What even was that thing? A hallucination for sure but why? It doesn't matter, he tells himself as he shakes his head and smiles.]
It's not your fault and I don't think I had any proper way to... explain that. I'm so happy knowing you and Sunny and possibly Aubrey have a chance to be close again, I just need to learn to ignore my guts. And thank you for listening.
[He pauses, there. He doesn't want Sunny and Basil to be around each other and that's such a horrible, horrible feeling. He always pushes it down because it's just not fair, but he's not strong enough to risk losing either of them again and- he can't control how he feels.]
I want to believe you're right. And I want to believe you can also find happiness and peace- [He bites his lips, there. Only in this place, huh?] but not just in this place, Basil. We can't just give up home and run away, even if things can be rough. I know happiness awaits us there as well, we just have to work on it. And we can because, like here, we can be together.
If Sunny ends up moving? We'll visit him every weekend, I promise I'll work hard with part time stuff to have money for the tickets for both of us, in case. He's not getting rid of us. [His friends better work on their school grades, he knows he's not going anywhere with his own so...] And when we're of age we can just move there and be a general nuisance anyway, right? And we have Hero and Polly there, who also love us very much- I know Polly just works for you, Basil, but I've seen how much she cares about you.
We don't know if we can stay, Basil, so let's... let's not completely lose hope about our old life too, mh? I swear I'm not abandoning you here nor there. We're friends and- last time- [He admitted it to Sunny, he should be honest with Basil.] When Mari died, Hero was in shambles. We spent a year trying to get him back on his legs and I failed you all and let you all alone. I won't repeat the same mistake,it's a promise.
[Smiling is difficult, incredibly so, but he also doesn't know how to default to anything else in moments like this. He nods and leans closer, resting his head against the other's shoulder just for a moment.]
I am... so glad you listened. It's already enough for me. I'm so glad you're here as well, Basil. There.. there is a lot we still have to talk about, but we can take things slowly. I... there is just one thing. If I have to protect you and Sunny I have to know what I'm looking for, right?
[One sphere of water detaches from their improvised couch, lazily floating at Basil's side. The superficial tension is stronger than normal so even the other should be able to manipulate it without getting wet, basically just touching something extremely malleable.]
This... bastard. Do you think you can show me what it looks like? If not, it's okay. I will figure things out. But I'd like to know what's been haunting the two of you so I can protect you two better.
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When the other wipes his tears away, he feels jealous- he wishes he was able to do the same- but the only time he cried since he arrived there? It was in front of Aubrey and it was ugly.]
No need to push them away in front of me, mh? If you feel you want to cry, you can cry.
[Better than the alternative. God, what was he even supposed to do about 'Something'? What even was that thing? A hallucination for sure but why? It doesn't matter, he tells himself as he shakes his head and smiles.]
It's not your fault and I don't think I had any proper way to... explain that. I'm so happy knowing you and Sunny and possibly Aubrey have a chance to be close again, I just need to learn to ignore my guts. And thank you for listening.
[He pauses, there. He doesn't want Sunny and Basil to be around each other and that's such a horrible, horrible feeling. He always pushes it down because it's just not fair, but he's not strong enough to risk losing either of them again and- he can't control how he feels.]
I want to believe you're right. And I want to believe you can also find happiness and peace- [He bites his lips, there. Only in this place, huh?] but not just in this place, Basil. We can't just give up home and run away, even if things can be rough. I know happiness awaits us there as well, we just have to work on it. And we can because, like here, we can be together.
If Sunny ends up moving? We'll visit him every weekend, I promise I'll work hard with part time stuff to have money for the tickets for both of us, in case. He's not getting rid of us. [His friends better work on their school grades, he knows he's not going anywhere with his own so...] And when we're of age we can just move there and be a general nuisance anyway, right? And we have Hero and Polly there, who also love us very much- I know Polly just works for you, Basil, but I've seen how much she cares about you.
We don't know if we can stay, Basil, so let's... let's not completely lose hope about our old life too, mh? I swear I'm not abandoning you here nor there. We're friends and- last time- [He admitted it to Sunny, he should be honest with Basil.] When Mari died, Hero was in shambles. We spent a year trying to get him back on his legs and I failed you all and let you all alone. I won't repeat the same mistake,it's a promise.
[Smiling is difficult, incredibly so, but he also doesn't know how to default to anything else in moments like this. He nods and leans closer, resting his head against the other's shoulder just for a moment.]
I am... so glad you listened. It's already enough for me. I'm so glad you're here as well, Basil. There.. there is a lot we still have to talk about, but we can take things slowly. I... there is just one thing. If I have to protect you and Sunny I have to know what I'm looking for, right?
[One sphere of water detaches from their improvised couch, lazily floating at Basil's side. The superficial tension is stronger than normal so even the other should be able to manipulate it without getting wet, basically just touching something extremely malleable.]
This... bastard. Do you think you can show me what it looks like? If not, it's okay. I will figure things out. But I'd like to know what's been haunting the two of you so I can protect you two better.