[And... of course it's about Sunny. What else is new? He... isn't completely sure of how to navigate this, but there's no Something around here right? That's something at least.]
I know you're not.
[He's not letting the other lie like that. Basil can admit he's not fine and still keep what he wants tor himself, but no more 'I am okay' when it's not really sincere.
he's not stepping away, merely caressing the cheek with his thumb and trying to have eye contact with the other. He knows he can't replace Sunny in any way, but right not he can't really go and bring the other here. He.... doesn't want to, after what happened.]
Did you two fight? Basil... I know it's hard, but being all alone in your own head isn't going to make things better. I promise I won't go tell Sunny anything you tell me, I haven't- I didn't talk to him since his birthday anyway.
( Basil's expression shifts away for a moment, and he lifts a hand to touch Kel's. There's a shift, as though he's struggling to speak. )
I-I don't want to upset you.
( Mentioning Sunny was tricky. He cared too much for Kel to bring him up so carelessly. So, he'll try to be a bit vague. He doesn't want to push him away, after all. )
This place... it's mean. It changes things for the better, and then it makes them worse again.
[He shakes his head at those words. It's not easy to actually upset him and while he does miss Sunny (and a lot of his other friends) he knows how to keep his feelings in check.]
You will not, I promise. Basil, he ignored me for months when I went to directly knock at his door, whatever he's doing now.. it doesn't hurt me, promise.
[It does, because he thought things would get better, but that's... now something he can or wants to say. He does his best to try to offer a reassuring smile to the other.]
Is this about the... messed up memories? I... get it. This place can be really awful- for a moment it convinced me someone I know killed themselves in front of me- [That has been his experience at least.] But... we both know reality is what matters even if sometimes it hurts, right?
[The touch lingers on the other's cheek.]
And if it's another thing that's bothering you... please, I want to listen. I want to be here for you.
( Gently reaching for that hand on his cheek, he brings the back of it to his lips, pressing a soft kiss to skin. He appreciates Kel more than words can say, but perhaps that's part of what being in a relationship helps to show. )
I... I'm so sorry, Kel... Why didn't you tell me? I could have been there for you, just like you are for me...
( His focus is definitely more on Kel. If anything, he'd prefer not to focus on his own thoughts. If Kel wants to place the focus on Basil again, the shorter of the two won't hesitate to try to bring up what was just said to him.
Basil knows fully well how traumatizing seeing someone die is, but suicide? They've already dealt with too much death... This world could truly be cruel. )
[He blinks, cheeks turning slightly darker- he's the one usually giving affection, not mch on the receiving end, but he can't... let the other take the focus away from Sunny. Or whatever is bothering him.]
Because I'm fine. I know that never happened. It's not important anymore because I... Basil, you're more important than whatever this place made me believe for ten minutes or so.
Just a bad nightmare and I woke up from it. What you're going through is real though and I'd rather focus on that.
[He leans in to kiss the other's forehead. There's no hiding problema anymore... right? Right?]
[He moves his hands a it to cup the other's face. It is tricky indeed and Kel is not that worried about what he saw with Aubrey because it was not real but... if it can help lower the other's guard, he will talk.]
okay. We help each other. [He accepts the other's gesture, taking his hands as well.] For a moment, back there, I thought Sunny killed himself instead of coming to talk with us. I know it's not the case. I know he's alive, both here and back home. I promise I'm fine, though, I just have to take some mental images away from my brain. [A pause.] Your turn?
( Basil isn't sure how Kel can say those words so calmly. Is it truly because he knew that it wasn't real? But, he knows this world. Everything about can certainly seem and feel real enough.
He presses a kiss to Kel's lips - chaste and hopefully reassuring, his fingers gently brushing against one of the hands at his cheek. )
... S-Still, I know how real things can be here. It can be hard to remember that things are different. I'm... just glad that you got through it okay.
( He takes in a breath. )
... Sunny and I spent a lot of time together. B-Back when... I thought Mari was still alive.
[Because he has worse memories that are real and he's... good at suppressing his own emotions. Sunny falling down was not real, Sunny bleeding out on a bathroom floor was- as long as he keeps in mind what matters, protecting both Sunny and Basil, he... they're not going to hurt each other, right.
He closes his eyes, returning the kiss and holding back any big reaction.]
Things can feel real when you're in the moment, but as long as I manage to keep in mind what matters, things like how real you are to me... I'm going to be fine, I promise.
[Ah, that anxiety munching at his stomach. Yes, he knows, he knows and he should trust them, but he also- no, no one is going to get hurt. He holds back his own feelings and nods, looking in Basil's direction. he's ready.]
Okay. Makes sense... and that is upsetting you because...
( Despite the worry in his expression, he smiles. If he can help keep Kel grounded, then he can find some peace, It motivates him to try more for him. More than anything, he wants Kel to be safe and happy. )
I'm happy if I can help you in any way. N-No matter what happens... I'll be there for you if something like that happens again.
( He stops at the question, pulling away a little with furrowed brows. )
S-Sunny and I... we used to spend a lot of time together. But even here, he's been avoiding me. And then... ( He pauses. ) O-Omori--
He was upset. And... I know that-- he's the kind of person to say a lot of things he doesn't mean.
[Shakes his head, smiling.He'd rather not be around Basil, should his mind be exploited again. when he thought Sunny killed himself, he was so, so angry they were all in Basil's room instead of being i the other boy's one because 'he didn't deserve all this attention, we failed Sunny because of him' and... it's a horrible feeling too have, especially toward the person he likes. thankfully it was just a false memory...]
There's no one else I'd like by my side, Basil.
[So this is... about both omori and Sunny.]
Sunny is avoidant. Look at us, we had a small discussion and he has not been contacting me for weeks now. I think he avoids... a lot. Then again he is been through a lot, like you... i feel like thee's a lot of patience to be had if one wants to be with him.
BUt that doesn't mean it's impossible.
[And Omori... he saw the post but he also promised not to contact Sunny so...]
I think Omori is very young. And very... new to the world. The Real world. so I think that sometimes he can lash out and be cruel in that special way kids can be. I don't know what he told you, but he probably knows you as much as Sunny does and... knows where to hit. He sounds hurt, he probably wants others to be hurt as well, so the best is probably being aware he's just trying to hurt.
Dare I ask what was said? It's okay if you don't want to share...
( He smiles at Kel's words, albeit it's a bit weak. He doesn't know how he'd absolutely do anything for him, even if it's at the cost of himself. However, there's a part of him that wonders if he needs to try harder for the other's sake. He wants to seem as dependable as possible, just as he was for his friends in the past.
But... Sunny.... They're both avoidant in different ways. The fact that Sunny is so avoidant is why he's so desperate to see him again, and why it hurts so much that they aren't talking. Basil would do anything to show him that he didn't have to avoid him, that he could be a good friend to him. If he ever had the chance...
He has a feeling that Kel doesn't understand. That's alright. This is something that only he and Sunny could understand. Their bond was so unique and special in that way, just as Kel and Basil had their own bond. )
I'll... wait as long as I need to, just like before. ( But, it hurts so much. ) I'm happy that he has the support he needs otherwise...
What he said-- it... it was a lie, so it's not important. ( Once again, he's lying. Omori did indeed know exactly what to say to hurt him. ) I just know... Aubrey will be there for him.
Sunny loves you, Kel. I'm sure that the both of you will make up. -- No, I know you will. A-And, I'l be here with you every step of the way.
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I know you're not.
[He's not letting the other lie like that. Basil can admit he's not fine and still keep what he wants tor himself, but no more 'I am okay' when it's not really sincere.
he's not stepping away, merely caressing the cheek with his thumb and trying to have eye contact with the other. He knows he can't replace Sunny in any way, but right not he can't really go and bring the other here. He.... doesn't want to, after what happened.]
Did you two fight? Basil... I know it's hard, but being all alone in your own head isn't going to make things better. I promise I won't go tell Sunny anything you tell me, I haven't- I didn't talk to him since his birthday anyway.
[It hurts, but that's how things are.]
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I-I don't want to upset you.
( Mentioning Sunny was tricky. He cared too much for Kel to bring him up so carelessly. So, he'll try to be a bit vague. He doesn't want to push him away, after all. )
This place... it's mean. It changes things for the better, and then it makes them worse again.
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You will not, I promise. Basil, he ignored me for months when I went to directly knock at his door, whatever he's doing now.. it doesn't hurt me, promise.
[It does, because he thought things would get better, but that's... now something he can or wants to say. He does his best to try to offer a reassuring smile to the other.]
Is this about the... messed up memories? I... get it. This place can be really awful- for a moment it convinced me someone I know killed themselves in front of me- [That has been his experience at least.] But... we both know reality is what matters even if sometimes it hurts, right?
[The touch lingers on the other's cheek.]
And if it's another thing that's bothering you... please, I want to listen. I want to be here for you.
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I... I'm so sorry, Kel... Why didn't you tell me? I could have been there for you, just like you are for me...
( His focus is definitely more on Kel. If anything, he'd prefer not to focus on his own thoughts. If Kel wants to place the focus on Basil again, the shorter of the two won't hesitate to try to bring up what was just said to him.
Basil knows fully well how traumatizing seeing someone die is, but suicide? They've already dealt with too much death... This world could truly be cruel. )
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Because I'm fine. I know that never happened. It's not important anymore because I... Basil, you're more important than whatever this place made me believe for ten minutes or so.
Just a bad nightmare and I woke up from it. What you're going through is real though and I'd rather focus on that.
[He leans in to kiss the other's forehead. There's no hiding problema anymore... right? Right?]
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It's tricky. He doesn't know to push the issue or not. He doesn't want to make Kel uncomfortable. )
... Even if it's just a nightmare, I-I know that it can seem real.
Please, Kel... I'm here for you. We promised we'd talk to each other, didn't we? I-I'll tell you what's bothering me, but...
I want to help.
( He looks to the other pleadingly, reaching to take the other's hand into his. )
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[He moves his hands a it to cup the other's face. It is tricky indeed and Kel is not that worried about what he saw with Aubrey because it was not real but... if it can help lower the other's guard, he will talk.]
okay. We help each other. [He accepts the other's gesture, taking his hands as well.] For a moment, back there, I thought Sunny killed himself instead of coming to talk with us. I know it's not the case. I know he's alive, both here and back home. I promise I'm fine, though, I just have to take some mental images away from my brain. [A pause.] Your turn?
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He presses a kiss to Kel's lips - chaste and hopefully reassuring, his fingers gently brushing against one of the hands at his cheek. )
... S-Still, I know how real things can be here. It can be hard to remember that things are different. I'm... just glad that you got through it okay.
( He takes in a breath. )
... Sunny and I spent a lot of time together. B-Back when... I thought Mari was still alive.
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He closes his eyes, returning the kiss and holding back any big reaction.]
Things can feel real when you're in the moment, but as long as I manage to keep in mind what matters, things like how real you are to me... I'm going to be fine, I promise.
[Ah, that anxiety munching at his stomach. Yes, he knows, he knows and he should trust them, but he also- no, no one is going to get hurt. He holds back his own feelings and nods, looking in Basil's direction. he's ready.]
Okay. Makes sense... and that is upsetting you because...
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I'm happy if I can help you in any way. N-No matter what happens... I'll be there for you if something like that happens again.
( He stops at the question, pulling away a little with furrowed brows. )
S-Sunny and I... we used to spend a lot of time together. But even here, he's been avoiding me. And then... ( He pauses. ) O-Omori--
He was upset. And... I know that-- he's the kind of person to say a lot of things he doesn't mean.
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There's no one else I'd like by my side, Basil.
[So this is... about both omori and Sunny.]
Sunny is avoidant. Look at us, we had a small discussion and he has not been contacting me for weeks now. I think he avoids... a lot. Then again he is been through a lot, like you... i feel like thee's a lot of patience to be had if one wants to be with him.
BUt that doesn't mean it's impossible.
[And Omori... he saw the post but he also promised not to contact Sunny so...]
I think Omori is very young. And very... new to the world. The Real world. so I think that sometimes he can lash out and be cruel in that special way kids can be. I don't know what he told you, but he probably knows you as much as Sunny does and... knows where to hit. He sounds hurt, he probably wants others to be hurt as well, so the best is probably being aware he's just trying to hurt.
Dare I ask what was said? It's okay if you don't want to share...
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But... Sunny.... They're both avoidant in different ways. The fact that Sunny is so avoidant is why he's so desperate to see him again, and why it hurts so much that they aren't talking. Basil would do anything to show him that he didn't have to avoid him, that he could be a good friend to him. If he ever had the chance...
He has a feeling that Kel doesn't understand. That's alright. This is something that only he and Sunny could understand. Their bond was so unique and special in that way, just as Kel and Basil had their own bond. )
I'll... wait as long as I need to, just like before. ( But, it hurts so much. ) I'm happy that he has the support he needs otherwise...
What he said-- it... it was a lie, so it's not important. ( Once again, he's lying. Omori did indeed know exactly what to say to hurt him. ) I just know... Aubrey will be there for him.
Sunny loves you, Kel. I'm sure that the both of you will make up. -- No, I know you will. A-And, I'l be here with you every step of the way.