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knockingatthedoor: All is forgiven (015)

[personal profile] knockingatthedoor 2024-08-12 05:52 am (UTC)(link)
[It's better than denying the truth, though. There already is a big spirit doing 'bad stuff' in their lives right now, one he genuinely doubts exists, but... Kel is at least trying to be positive.]

You too, I hope. I mean, don't remember much but I am positive I was probably a nuisance. Hero says I love inhibitions when I'm super tired- once I bit him, you know? Something about us camping and some deers showing up and me not wanting to get out of my sleeping bag to see them- hell if I actually remember it, though.

I hope I didn't bite you, at least?

[he sighs when he sees the kitchen, he truly left a mess behind, huh? Instead of clearing immediately the disaster of veggies and batter and oh god that pan is in such a messy stat- no, he does focus on preparing something nice for Basil instead.]

Well, I trust you, so... let's have a nice not too messy breakfast, mh?

[Fortunately enough he has enough pizza dough left in the fridge to do some pizza puffs. Kel grabs a muffins tray, makes some balls and prepares some mini pizzas on the side, making sure to cover them with cheese, add some mushrooms in the 'core' instead of pepperoni for extra bite of flavour.With the oven warm and the pizza bites cooking in it, Kel finally starts to clean after himself.]

Man... I can't believe I just left all this stuff outside despite the heat of this month... I fear we'll have some extra stuff for the compost, this poor lettuce has seen better days.
knockingatthedoor: Yeah no you lost me (071)

[personal profile] knockingatthedoor 2024-08-13 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[Was it now? He does notice the small stutter at least, making mental note to eventually ask if he did something wrong. He- ah, screw it.

Communication was one of the things they were lacking the most, between all of them.
]

You don't sound convinced. So I'm just... Basil. Listen, I don't remember last night at all, various dismemberment themed nightmares aside, so... please. We're friends. If I ever do anything wrong, let me know. Okay?

I can't change for the better if you... don't tell me what's wrong. Just a thought for the future,mh?

[A smile, there, before shaking his head. He's so sore and his whole body wants to forget it exists but...]

Hey- not your fault, okay? I made the mess to begin with. And I'm sure your plants will be happy. All of them.
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[personal profile] knockingatthedoor 2024-08-14 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
[He sees the hestitation, the doubts. As he told Aubrey, he pays insane attention to Basil's body language, lately. Something happened. Something that may be bad. ]

Nothing that happened was my fault... okay. But that implies that something did happen. Basil- [A small sigh.] Please, please know you can talk to me, okay? I know there still are things we need to talk about- [He was almost completely sure he did not share the truth, Basil wouldn't be so calm otherwise.] and we will get there, eventually, but in the meanwhile... please, let's try to be honest with each other.

I... I'm sorry for whatever I did, though. I truly am.

[But no focus on that as he starts cleaning instead. The pizza bites will cook, the rest will be tossed outside, he'll focus on washing the dishes once they're done with breakfast.

Not exploring again, huh?
]

I will not take you there again, promise. Last time all I got was a big, fun nap, nothing liek this. I'm sorry this ended up happening...
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[personal profile] knockingatthedoor 2024-08-14 06:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oh. Oh.... of course, that makes sense. Kel presses one hand over his face, hiding it for a moment. Of course he had to- only Aubrey got a general idea of how much Kel missed Hero and even her only got snippets from random commentary mostly tied to Sunny and Basil anyway.]

I'm... sorry. [He wants to run away from the topic, but he did ask Basil to be honest. And the other was so it's only fair to... honesty and communication before anyhing else, since it was something they lacked back then. At least he couuld talk of this since it only involved him and Hero, right?] I miss him. I miss him a lot. It's... he's not been actually fine since.... you know. [The teen crossed his arms, glancing to the side.] So I tend to worry. I... the reason I didn't visit you or Aubrey after... he shut down. Like Sunny did. And my parents kept trying to... pray it away. I guess I turned into the protective brother, there? so... yeah, I guess- I tend to be affectionate with him. More than wrestling like we used to. I'm... really sorry if I made you uncomfortable. I didn't realize you didn't want to be touched or-

[He's jumping to conlusions, there, like an idiot, but he can try not to be touchy. Really. It's instinctive of him to seek contact but he can control himself. There are also no mentions of how he felt or anything, but when he tried to open himself with Sunny- well, that talk in front of mari's grave only got him a blank stare in return...]

Really, I'm so sorry. BUt... Basil? As much as I miss him, I am also oh so happy to be by your side right now, okay? If that makes sense...

[A pause.]

Oh. I heard there's just... it's kind of random what you find. We were just unlucky. Which was probably my fault? I consumed my luck last time.
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[personal profile] knockingatthedoor 2024-08-15 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ah, fuck. he could read Basil's body reactions and they were far from reassuring... bringing up Hero and his trauma had not been a good idea. But at least he had been... honest? They were working on honesty there, right? Even when it hurt...

He leaves his oven mitts on the table, kneeling inn front of the other and offering both hands in his direction, for Basil to lean his own upon. There was no digging in skin and such on his watch.
]

I am lucky to have friends like you, too. And, for what it's worth, I am by your side now. I guess that makes both of us pretty lucky, huh?

[A smile. No, this wasn't enough. He had to bring up the good things too]

. . .

[He doesn't touch, he doesn't move, he allows the other to choose how far they'll go in terms of contact. If basil isn't against it, that's actually... well, a relief.]

And... I know I told you about the bad things a moment ago, but Hero got better. So much better. You know he attends parties at college? Him of all people, hah! They have alcohol in those parties, Basil. Can you imagine him drinking? I can't!

[Kel tasted wine while cooking. He tasted beer while making tempura batter. He found them both awful. it didn't help they were lukewarm at best.]

Basil. I can see you're a bit overwhelmed now. Do you want to breathe with me? Come on. Let's try.... take a deep deep breath with me....
knockingatthedoor: All is forgiven (015)

[personal profile] knockingatthedoor 2024-08-16 06:19 am (UTC)(link)
[Good, follow him in this. At least it seem there will be no need for further tricks like HEro's 'name me five items in the room, five sounds and five smells', all exciting stuff for dealing with Anxiety. It was because he told the other Hero suffered, right? Who even knew how guilty Basil felt for hiding so much for so long, especially knowing what- focus, Kel. Focus.

He smiles up in the other's direction. Okay, kneeling down had been a terrible idea, even if it was the easier way to be in line of sight of the other. His legs are... too stiff not to get stuck. Oh, god, everything hurts.
]

That's it, you're doing amazing, Basil.

[Better hold Kel's hands and breathe than slip into a panic attack, right? RIGHT?]

And, yes, we will get there. I was talking about it with Aubrey the other day. Even if we were, big surprise, yelling at each other. We will all be happy in the end, even if happiness is very personal to each person. We will all find that one thing that makes us smile. Even if Happily ever after are not a thing, I'm certain we can get to a spot where the good outweights the bad.

[A big grin from down there. Oh, dear, he's so going to struggle getting up.]

Let's work hard together until we get there, mh? And don't worry, I got your back in this- after all, we want everyone to be happy, right? This includes you too.
knockingatthedoor: All the love and support! (076)

[personal profile] knockingatthedoor 2024-08-16 07:06 am (UTC)(link)
[There's no way in hell Kel is leaving, not at this point. He really saw the worst of the worst from both Sunny and Basil, yet he still loves them dearly. And he will try as hard as needed to be by Basil's side, at least... with Sunny things are just too complicated. But how couldn't they be? He cannot look at him without feeling the other's body against his own, without remembering how hopelessly he pressed a certain wound against his chest in the clumsy attempt to stop the bleeding... and how he had to rely on everyone else for Sunny to survive.

Basil would at least understand what it means having some specific memories haunting you, right?

But it's not the right time to address that. He smiles up at the other and offers a confident expression while doing his best to keep his balance. Oh, man, the pizza puffs are going to burn if he can't move from there.
]

Well, You know how it works with friends, right? Your happiness is my happiness... so in my case, just help me make you happy and it'll be a work well done.

[Isn't that what his wish is all about anyway? But there is something else and that... worries him. Okay, time to see what else happened, can't be worse than hero- but before that...]

It's okay, we can handle whatever, right? Just... huh... can you help me up? I think I'm kind of stuck. Hah... my body isn't really agreeing with all the lactic acid in my muscles... [yeah, pretty embarrassing.] but after I'm ack on my feet, I'm all yours.
knockingatthedoor: Eheheh I guess? (050)

[personal profile] knockingatthedoor 2024-08-16 07:47 am (UTC)(link)
[It certainly sucks how much everyone got hurt, huh? But Kel is okay, everyone must think he's fine, he'll be fine eventually- he's probably the better practiced teen when it comes to repressing his own feelings in that sense. Sunny is fine, either here where he still has his eye or back in his world where he finally woke up...]

That's a good position to be stuck into, though, isn't it? Heh... buddies trying to make each other happy is not the worst kind of deal I can think of.

[It was certainly worst being stuck with one knee on the floor. He has to hold onto Basil to push himself up and it's not without a groan of discomfort that he finally gets back onto his feet. Oh, boy...]

I did agree to a breakfast in bed, didn't I? I promise I'll take things slow for a bit, really. Now... let's handle what's left, mh? After that we can, I don't know, maybe read a book together in bed?

[He's so going to pass out in a page or two.]
knockingatthedoor: Fake confidence (094)

[personal profile] knockingatthedoor 2024-08-16 08:45 am (UTC)(link)
[It's the base of every bond, isn't it? Wanting the people you care about to find happiness? And that smile definitely makes Kel feel... things. Positive things. He doesn't really ask himself much more than what he's currently thinking about before forcing his poor, tired arm forward in the attempt to ruffle the other's hair, careful to pay attention to the other's body language and step back should he see any discomfort.]

Sounds like a deal, then...

[He picks up his mittens once more, looking inside the oven just to see the mini pizza muffins be ready- those really take little to go, huh? He opens the glass door, letting some heat flow out before grabbing the metal sheet and placing it carefully on the table to let it set.

What does he like to read, huh? Spaceboy comics? Spaceboy and Rococo fanfictions? Those are the good things but he can pepper the answer with a bit of extra friendliness.
]

Well, I'd like to see what kind of things you like. You know, beside gardening and such... why don't you show me your favorite book of the ones you have? I will gladly read it with you- even if I apologize in advance because I will probably fall asleep at some point.